Although my perspective has changed so much this past month, I am still me, and I still struggle with certain situations. I am seriously praying for guidance (as I write this, I think I just got my answer) on how to handle a situation, or should I simply not handle it at all. I am really trying to follow what God would want me to do in every aspect of my life, and this particular situation is particularly difficult for me.
I have decided to let God handle the situation, because there's really nothing I can do, or any human can do, for that matter. Some find me to be insensitive and cold hearted and unforgiving when it comes to this situation, but that is so not the case. I do care, and I do pray, every day for God to take hold of the situation, and I have faith that His will will be done. But that's all I can do.
Honestly, I really need to do some praying about the feelings I am having after a conversation with a family member I just had. I am feeling very angry and hurt, even though I know that was not the intention. All of a sudden, a lot of old feelings are arising, and I don't like it one bit. It is really hard sometimes to set my own feelings aside, and think, "What would Jesus do?" Did Jesus' feelings get hurt, do you think?
I know God will comfort me, and I'll get over it, but MAN! It really gets old shedding tears over the same things, over and over and over and over...etc., etc.....
"God, I ask you to please give me guidance, and help me to set aside my own thoughts and feelings, and to do your will. God, please take control of this situation as I surrender it to you, and please, Lord, watch over those involved, and guide them, help them to make good choices, and please, PLEASE, Lord, keep them safe. I love you and I praise you, Lord, Amen."