Obviously every day isn't 'peachy', for any of us. And although I am learning to focus on the positive, and dismiss the negative, it doesn't mean I don't still feel weighted down sometimes. Today has been one such day. An issue from yesterday affected me more than I knew, apparently, because it followed me into my dreams, and greatly impacted my thoughts, actions, and motives today.
I am trying so hard not to pass judgement on others, and am trying to be a loving, kind person, but today, I have absolutely not been feeling it. I am angry and disappointed at myself for being weak in several areas today. I feel like I have let God down, but I am thankful that He is a kind and loving God, and that I will be forgiven if I ask sincerely for forgiveness.
I need to pray for guidance, strength, and wisdom, and perhaps there are certain people, places, and things that I should simply avoid. But I am torn about what His will is about one certain situation, and I don't know what to do; I really just don't. The best I can do is to pray for His will, because I honestly don't even know what else to pray for. I just have to hand it over, and perhaps I just need to let God handle it, and stay away, because I obvioiusly can NOT handle it. Please pray for me.
"Dear Lord, please forgive me for my thoughts and actions today that weren't pleasing to you. Heavenly Father, I desperately need your guidance and your strength, because, Lord, I obviously can't handle this situation myself, and when I try, it ends up disatrously to me. Lord, sometimes I wish I didn't feel so much, but I know that you made me this way, and that you had apurpose in that. So, Lord, I just thank you for your grace, and I have faith that everything happens according to your plan. Help me to remember that you are in control, Lord, and that it's your show, not mine. I love you and I praise you, Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen."